Have you guys heard this song? I'm loving this band!! Its my newest obsessions in music. I like to drown myself in music and forget about being me for small while. This song is fabulous. My current playlist also includes Seether (love them) Taylor Swift, and Sugarland. I'm really loving Sugarland lately.
So its nearing 7am, and Ive been awake all night. I was going to bed with my family, when Suddenly I was hit with this huge stream of brilliant mojo rushing through my mind, and Ive been busy scrapping all night. Oh the greatest that blah blah blah Ok yeah right, back to reality. Actually I'm still sitting, staring at the Computer screen empty minded and bored out of my mind, yet I cant sleep. Whats new there? I'm starting to think I'm crazy, or truly in need of some form of sleeping pills. Those of you who know me, know they are no way I could ever swallow those things and they would sit and waste away in my side drawer like all other medications I'm prescribed. I have a strong desire to fill the prescriptions, yet I cant take them. I think this coincides with my perfectionist tendencies. Which is another thing I wish I could kick out the window. Now Josh on the other hand, falls asleep as soon as his head hits the pillow, literally! And Frankly that ticks me off. Speaking of Josh, we recently celebrate our 6 year anniversary, yay for me huh.....well not exactly. I have come to the conclusion that he and I are from two different worlds and I don't think our expectations and goals in life are the same. I have to ask myself what ELSE I'm willing to sacrifice and let go of in life. He doesnt have a clue who I am or what I like. Yes he can tell you I adore Kenny Chesney. . . That's bc I say all the time, how I dream of going to his concerts some day, But can he tell you what my favorite perfume is? ...NO! and he doesn't know how much I love cozy fireplaces, boots, costume jewelry, red hots and polka dots. Are you thinking I'm insanely crazy and even a bit delusional now? Hard-hearted Even? I don't know whats wrong with me, but I know I'm not a happy spring chicken. So are you guys thinking I'm clinically depressed? Must try to get some sleep, as B will be up in a few hours now.